The boys and I have decided to head home tomorrow. There is a lot going on here and we are just at the "I wanna go home!" point. Tomorrow is my SIL's grandpas funeral, so when they head out of town for that we will head home. We plan to stop and have lunch with my mom and then visit my grandparents first.
I plan to sleep in until 3pm on Saturday. For the last two days I have watched the girls while my brother and SIL work, and holy crap I forgot how early 1 and 3 year olds wake up.
Saw my grandpa again yesterday and he is rapidly getting worse. They have started hospice care for him now. The strange thing is, he was more alert and aware yesterday than he has been in years. He knew everyone and even called my mom out for not visiting as often as he thinks she should. "It is nice to see you Kay. You should come to see me more often." He doesn't know the details but he knows that something is going on... and I think it scares him. I am a horrible granddaughter, because I can't handle death and am totally bailing. I suck.
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Krista,
We are still sending thoughts and prayers your family's way. Try and remember that being a good granddaughter isn't about how you handle losing your grandfather, it's about how you handled loving him while before he dies. You have been a wonderful granddaughter to him since you were born, and he is a lucky man to have had you in his life. You have spent (insert your age here) being a good granddaughter, allow yourself the chance to feel the loss without feeling guilty.
Marie
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